Shifting

My week #17 (out of 39ish) has wrapped up nicely. My body, though, is calling loudly for a stabilizer week. Thankfully that's what is in store. All I have left is a short run and swim, that will hopefully get done in San Diego. Eric and I are flying there tonight, and it looks like I will get to run with my brother in the morning. Nothing like running with one of my favorite people near the ocean.

This week has been interesting, but in challenging myself to allow God "to make my paths straight", it has worked out far better than it would have had I tried to control everything. Eric told me on Monday that he was going to Brazil on Tuesday until Friday (today). His parents planned to come up to watch the kids and they wound up coming a day early because of the weather. So, I had plenty of help with the kids and managed to get all of the workouts in that I would have done with Eric home.

I had some moments this week where I had to really work hard to get out the door (or into the basement). I am noticing that the choices are not coming as easy as they did before. I make myself go and I feel fine, but it's a struggle quieting the voices that tell me to "forgetaboutit". Again, thankfully a stabilizer is on the menu for week #18.

I am sensing a shift in my training and focus. I remember this time last year in training for the half ironman. There comes a moment (or moments) where I discover that the workouts are really requiring intentionality, discipline and focus. Not that I didn't have this focus before, it just seems now that the stakes are getting higher. I am appreciating this shift, because my life has become simpler in a sense. Yes, there's a lot more planning with workouts and such, but I'm finding that I say "no". I still feel kind of bad, like I should do more, but I can't right now...it's only 5 months. It's like when your blood goes to the core, because of injury, shock, whatever. I feel that's what I'm doing...going internal...focusing on the things of greatest import...my family, my faith, my marriage, my relationships, my workouts.

I continue to feel blessed and grateful. I am staying focused and keeping my head down...getting 'er done.